fucking huRTS!

TodaY SUCKS... i have tried my best to ignore the awful truth but it's hard. I am seriously hurt by a long tym "fren" at d morning and during the recess tym. If it's by a "not so close-fren", i treat it as nothin. But by sumbody who u have known for years? FOR MORE THAN 4 years?It's HURTS!!!! I thought of just leave the area lyt dat but i stay though. Stewpid me, maybe i really shud leave the area. U have been ignored, why bother stay kan? The worst and most hurtful part is during the recess. SmaLL things it may seems to be but it tells a lot. Being laughted aloudby so-called-fren of urs w/ telling u what's going on and a just laughted away lyt dat eventhough u have asked "WHY?"....IT's FUCKING HURTS!! Im cant afford to angry at this b'cuz u r just waytoo disappointed, helpless and overwhelm by sadness. I almost cry at GP class, but i hold on.But during maths class, tears come out when i told s abt this. THis matter may look childish but still, looking at the fact dat for all these years, u are only the "hehe-haha fren"...it's hurts. This may sound ridiculous but the whole day i think abt this, I cant help myself but cry for more than 5 times. I know. I'm making myself look so stupid kan??

I remember Helen told me dat having one true friend in ur life is enought alredi. Now i find this so meaningful. But sad that there no even one "fren" in my life is TRUE. To those of u out there, PLEASE BELIEVE THAT HAVING ONE TRUE FREN IS REALLY ENOUGHT!!! IF u alredi have one,PLEASE DO APPRECIATE IT!!! Some people cant even find one!! THat's why i so damn envy my brother.He have more than 1 true friends. They stick 2gether from secondary untill now, mind u that they all have been working alredi and one even married. BUt stiLL, they go out often andin times of trouble, they face it together. Not like some ppl when u tells them ur probs, they laught at it and treat it as a joke. Fucking ppl. Better fuck off my way!!

This happens many times alredi, and it's fucking hurts. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!

FUCKING LIFE!!! NO ONE GIVE A DAMN ABT THIS!!!